Haha. Well, ive had this written up for ages. But never thought to post it.

I don't have a title for it just yet. But I guess one will come later.

Tell me what you think? If you like it i'll keep going.

so...here we go! :)

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I walked up the road, kicking the gravel. This was so stupid! I did not want to be here!

I had only been here for 3 days yet it felt like I had been here for so much longer. Of all places my mother had to bring me she had to bring me to Germany. I bet its only because we have family over here. Then we wouldn't have to pay for a real holiday.

We were staying in this tiny apartment with my overly nice auntie and her two brat-faced kids. They were pretty strange to be honest.

One was a hardcore hip-hop and techno fan, while the other was a mainstream, teenie bopping band slut.

Despite that, they were still rather nice. Although they never understood the concept of "Alone time." They would always pester me about something.

As I went to walk through the gates, leading back to the apartments a car screeched to a halt. I spun around; faced with a shiny, black Audi just inches away from me. I grabbed my heart and took a deep breath. Stupid jerk! Clearly I was walking here!

I regained composure and let the idiot have a piece of my mind,

"You fucking idiot!" I started, rushing to the drivers window, "learn to drive, jerk!"

He and...was it a girl or a boy? I couldn't really tell. But they both looked pretty shocked. They probably didn't understand a thing I said anyway.

"Well maybe you should watch where you walk!"

The driver argued back, and in perfect English! I was taken aback.

I scoffed, "Well don't let me stop you now!"

 I was so angry at his arrogance. The nerve of him! He almost kills me and then twists the story around to look like it's my fault? Oh how id love nothing more than to wreak havoc on that beautiful looking car of his. Stupid shiny Audi owner! Who does he think he is?

When I finally reached the entrance to the apartments I looked back at the Audi that sat in one of the car parks. I rolled my eyes and headed on back to our apartment. After fiddling with the keys I entered,

"Anna!" The kids beamed. I faked a smile in return and walked into the house.

The smell of German cuisine hit me as soon as I walked in.

I melted to the couch. I was still a little shaken. I listened to the conversation between my mother and my auntie in the next room. I could only pick up a few words here and there. Languages weren't my thing.

My cousins, Erica and Daniel came and sat with me. I rolled my eyes. You would honestly think I was some sort of alien. They seemed so fascinated by everything I did. I don't know if they were just trying to be nice or they were genuinely this creepy.

"Anna, can I show you something?" Erica pulled me up from the couch, not giving me a choice.

I sighed and followed her to her room.

"Anna?!" My mom called.

Yes! I'm saved!

I let go of Erica's hand and ran out to find my mom.

"But Anna!" Erica wined.

I ignored her and went to the living room in search of my mom.

"Hi baby!"

"Hey" I replied, giving my mom a hug.

"I just have to race out to the shop for Katrina, wanna come?"

"Alright" I smiled.

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"So, anything interesting happen out on your walk?"

Mom broke the silence, jokingly.

"Yeah. I almost got killed by Eminem in a shiny black Audi"

"What? Eminem?"

I laughed, "No it was just some random guy, that almost RAN me down, that's the whole point here!"

My Mom snickered, "Sorry, are you alright?"

"I'm alive aren't I?"

We pulled into some gas station. I couldn't say the name of it.

"Anna, could you run in and get what's on the list?" She asked handing me a piece of paper. I huffed and got out of the car.

I noticed a black Audi at one of the gas pumps. Please don't tell me it's the same one that almost killed me this afternoon?

I strolled around the shop, grabbing the items the list asked for. Double-checking I was right.

My eyes caught sight of a packet of M&Ms. It was the last packet on the shelf. I was clearly meant to have it.

As I went to grab it, another hand went to do the same.

I looked up, to my horror it was the same guy I ran into this afternoon. He wore pants that were at least three sizes to big for him and a massive hoodie with graffiti styled writing and a white bandana. He looked ridiculous. Did he really think he looked good?

I laughed, "Are you serious?"

"Snooze you lose babe" The dread head swiftly stole the M&Ms from me.

"Yeah Babe!" I said emphasising 'babe' taking back the candy.

He glared at me like he was going to eat me if I didn't hand the packet back. I must say, he was intimidating giving his height. I was only 5'1 and he was at least 6'?

With a huff I chucked the M&Ms back to him, "Let the baby have its bottle."

I grabbed my purchases and walked out, storming back to the car.

"What's the matter?" Mom asked

"Nothing" I sighed hoping she didn't detect the anger in my voice. Without asking again she drove off out of the gas station.

I looked back at the obnoxious thug as he feasted on what should have been MY M&Ms. How unlucky could I be today?

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sorry if its shit or it doesn't make sense.

I didn't bother proof reading it. Hahaha.

Anyway, hope you liked it :)

Okay so I know I haven't updated in ..two months? Or more? But it is now official.

"We're not falling inlove we're just falling apart" fanfic is on hiatus!

I apologise. But Im in a major writers block at the moment. As you can tell. I don't like anything I write. So for now? Im going to be posting a new fanfic :) Yepyep. Brand, spanking new! >;D Just a writers block series thing. Won't be to long I don't think. But yes, I shall post it sometime within this week :D

What do you guys think? (:

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What do you think? If you want me to write the other one I will. However Iam more than happy to start a new one. Haha! Ive already have some of it written. But yeah, whatever you like :)

Opinions please!

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I saw nothing of Tom  the rest of the time i was there. I was beginning to feel guilty. The look on his face was one i wouldn't be able to forget any time soon.

The silence that filled the cadillac was deafening.

"Bill?" I began, breaking the silence, "Iam so, so sorry."

I waited for him to say something...anything!

He exchanged a glance between me and the road ahead, "I..Im sorry too." He breathed out.

"What do you need to be sorry for? This was my fault!"

He exchanged another glance, "Well...none of this would of happened had i not come around to your place...i could of handled my anger better-"

"But you had every right to be angry with me!" I cut him off.

He looked at me again. He didn't say anything.

We pulled into my drive way, "Thanks for bringing me home."

Bill smiled. Hardly genuine. But it still comforted me just that little bit.

"Its alright."

"And Bill?"

"Mm?"

"I truly am sorry...for everything."

He huffed, cupping my face gentley with his cold, soft hands, "Bee, stop. You nor I can change what happened,"

"But-"

He placed a finger over my mouth, i took the hint.

"Things are the way they are for a reason."

Ouch? I nodded, pulling away & stepped out of the car. I watched the beast speed off into the dark streets.

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First class. Maths. Excellent. I prayed to god that Tom wouldn't be there. I hesitated before opening the door. Trying to gather up something to say if he was there. Taking a deep breath i opened the door.

"Bryony! How nice of you to join us." My teacher greeted me sarcastically. The class had already well and truly started. How long had I been standing outside?! I ignored him and looked at my table to see if he was here. Sure enough, there he was. I cringed, heading over to my seat. I sat taking out what i needed then threw my bag under the desk.  I glanced at Tom from the corner of my eye. He wasn't doing maths. He seemed to be writing music? Nothing out of the ordinary though. He never payed attention. He noticed me staring at him, "What?"

"Huh? oh nothing."

I took a deap breath, "Listen, im really sorry about yesterday."

He rolled his eyes, "Don't worry about it."

"I can't not worry about it. I shouldn't of been so-"

"Bryony! Listen!"

"Sorry sir"

I was beginning to feel annoyed. I was sick of saying "Sorry." The expression was slowly losing its meaning.

"But you know...you shouldn't of told Bill"

Tom looked back up at me, his eyes widened, "Excuse me?"

"Well you didn't have to go blab to him!"

"He is my brother! He has all the right in the world to know!"

"Tom" The teacher warned, "quiet please?"

"There is a difference between telling someone cos' you care and telling someone out of jealousy." I kept my voice at a whisper, trying to avoid being told off...again.

Tom scoffed, "Jealousy? Do you honestly think that this is what its about?"

"Well why else would you go and tell Bill?!"

"Okay, one! I couldn't lie to him any longer, its just not fair. I owe him better than that. And two!-"

"Thats it! Bryony, Tom, get out!"

"What?!" we said in unison.

"Get out, both of you! When you can learn to control yourselves you can come back in."

We both rose from our seats. The whole class was staring as we left the room. The teacher slammed the door behind us, startling me a little. I leaned up against the wall. As did Tom.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Are you going to tell me the second reason?"

Tom huffed.

"Well?"

Rolling his eyes, he pushed himself off the wall opposite me and slowly came closer to me. He sighed, "Second reason is..."

The bell rang cutting him off. He raced back into the room, getting his bag, leaving before i had the chance to stop him.

I followed Tom to music, without him realising. I stopped when i saw him being greeted in quite the friendly way by Catherine. I grimaced as i watched them continue to swap spit with one another. My heart sank. Georg punched Tom as he ran past the couple when Tasia and Gustav turned up hand in hand laughing and smiling. As Tom went to chase Georg, Catherine pulled him back kissing him passionately once again before they departed. I watched Tom, Georg, Gustav and Tasia walk happily to music, while i still stood against the lockers. I argued on the decsion to just fake sick and go home or just tough it out.

"You okay?"

I looked up, Bill stood with a concerned look. I snickered, "You are probably the last person id expect to ask me that"

He gestured for us to continue walking, "How come?"

"Do I need to remind you of yesterday? Or anything else?"

"Well despite everything, i still care for you"

I smiled, I was glad to hear that he cared. I was beginning to feel no one did lately.

"Really?"

"Yes, so tell me...are you okay?"

I hesitated before answering. I sighed, "Well i'd be lying if i said i was"

We reached the music rooms to find our class all standing around outside. Our teacher was busy with the nineth and tenth grade classes who were setting up for a music showcase later on tonight.

"Bee!"

Tasia called excitedly. I waved from where Bill and I were standing. She skipped over and threw her arms around me almost baralling me over.

"Hey"

She finally let go, wearing a massive smile "you excited for the dance? Not long now!"

I faked a smile and nodded. I wasn't in the least bit excited about the dance. Infact? I wasn't sure i'd even go.

I hadn't told Tasia about what happened. I wasn't planning to either. It wasn't my finest, nor my proudest moment.

I looked past Tasia and Gustav, noticing Tom and Georg as they strolled out of the music room, Tom carrying one of the guitars they sat facing eachother, chatting away.

Tom's P.O.V

"So...you and Catherine eh?" Georg winked. I gave him a nod.

"When did this happen?!"

"We've always been on and off, you know that."

"Yeah but still..."

we went silent. I continued to play random melodies on my guitar looking over to Gustav and Tasia when I saw Bee staring right back at me. She looked away the moment our eyes met. I could tell she was trying not to stare. I smirked then turned back to Georg who was busy texting.

I was fooling myself in thinking i could ignore Bee or the situation we were in. Being with Catherine still wouldn't change how i truly felt. It would only distract me. We aren't even together really. I put my guitar down, "i'll be back." And got up heading over to Bee. She turned away the moment she saw me coming. I rolled my eyes. I tapped her shoulder, "Hi"

She slowly turned back, "hey?"

"Can we talk?"

She scoffed, "We tried this earlier didn't we? Well...i tried." As she went to walk away i pulled her back.

"Don't touch me!" She spun around, breaking from my grip.

"Please?"

She glared at me, "Okay...fine."

We reached the wall behind the music block. I made sure no one would see us sneaking off. Especially Bill. He'd get to suspicious.

"Bee? I think we need to talk-"

"Isn't that why im here?"

"Let me finish? I think we should talk about everything. We need to clear the air."

"Okay," She sat down on the cold, concrete floor leaning against the wall. I sat facing her, "Okay first off, im sorry-"

"Don't worry, besides its not just you its me too. We shouldn't of ever hooked up in the first place."

I wasn't expecting her to say that. It hurt a little, "wait what?"

"Well, had we not hooked up we wouldn't be were we are right now."

"You mean all of that, didn't mean anything to you?"

"It did at the time. But thats the past, and this is now. We need to just move on and except that things won't be the way they were. To much has happened between us."

Her words really stung. I didn't want to believe what she was saying.

"Besides, its pretty obvious that you've moved on anyway, you're with Catherine now so why worry-"

"Im not with Catherine!" I shot back defensively.

"Oh really? Because you guys sucking face in the hall earlier tells a different story!"

As she got up i rose with her, pulling her hand back before she could walk away, "No, Im not!"

Without thinking I pulled her into a kiss. I wrapped my arms around her waist pulling her close, as she slid her arms around my neck. I was suprised she didn't try to fight me off. After a few moments she pulled away. I couldn't read the look on her face. Without saying anything she walked off. I stood there wondering whether that really proved anything?

Bee's p.o.v

I walked back to the crowd of people, my head was spinning. Did that just happen? Its not like that kiss really proves that he isn't with Catherine. It was probably his way of shutting me up. And he definitely succeeded. I couldn't help but smile as i replayed the kiss over and over in my mind. I sat along the brick wall and watched Tom imerge from behind the music block, smiling. I snickered to myself. I don't understand! How could he have such will power?

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wow! this took forever but we finally got here! :D

This is crappy i know, im sorry >.< LOL. Hope y'all enjoyed it :) Chapter 32 will be up shortly ;)

thankyou for being patient with me :P baha! idk if this makes sense? does it? do you get whats going on?

if you have any problems with it tell me :) btw, im thinking of ways to end this fanfiction. Im only going to have 40 chapters. Maybe abit more. So i want to hear what YOU would like to happen ;) Also if you have any ideas on where you'd like the story to go feel free to comment me :)

ciao for now!

xoxo.

bold = dialogue (obv)

Yes. I know its short. But i wrote this while i couldn't think of anything to write for my fanfic (:

also i havent gone over it, and if its shit? i apologise >.< like i said...it was just something i wrote out of the random.

but yeah i'll update the fanfic soonly...in the mean time? READ THIS! ;D

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I lay awake amongst the hotel room bed sheets. A tear fell down my cheek. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, wishing I wasn't here. I felt so unclean. This wasn't how it was supposed to happen.

I always told myself I would never be one of these girls. I had too much respect for myself to just give it all to someone I would never see again. I never wanted the reputation of being "A groupie." I grimaced. My stomach turned just thinking about it.

How could I have been so stupid?

The bed moved slightly. I felt an arm take my waist, pulling me close. His warm breathe on the back of my neck. Such a bittersweet sin.

I imagined all those girls who would give anything for a moment like this. A night ago? I was one of them. This was something I had only ever imagined and never thought would be reality...

"Hey I know you!" I slurred above the loud music that filled the club of the after-party.

"Oh do you?"

"Yep! You are Tom Kaulitz!"

He laughed, "What's your name, baby?"

"Lia!"

"Pretty name for a pretty girl," He smirked.

I finished my drink, " Yeah, remember it, you could be screaming it later." I bit my lip seductively.

A smile spread across his face. Without hesitation, he took my hand and we escaped to his hotel room.

I hugged my pillow tight. I looked over at the bedside table for the time. 7am. I sighed, unsure of what I should do.

I felt Tom kiss the back of my neck and inched away from me. I took a deep breath and sat up from the pillow, watching him slip back into his clothes.

"Morning," I greeted him softly.

"Hey," He yawned.

"Leaving so soon?" I asked, knowing the answer anyway.

"Uh, yeah. I have to be down in the lobby. We should be leaving by now. They guys will get suspicious if I'm not there on time." He informed me. I nodded okay, hugging the sheets close to my body. He grabbed the few bags he had from the floor and came over to me, kissing me one last time. I desperately tried to fight the tears from falling. We pulled away slowly. He cupped my cheek in his strong, soft hands and smiled.

I sighed, letting him go, he left me alone in the hotel room. I sat for a few moments going over everything in my mind, again and again.

I got up from the bed, keeping the sheets wrapped around my body and walked over to the window. I watched as the boys tried to get to their tour bus. Fans who had waited since the early hours of the morning, lined up from everywhere just to get a glimpse of them.

Tom was the last to reach the bus. Before stepping into the bus he looked up in my direction, smiling to himself. The bus finally drove off. I sighed walking back over to the bed, collapsing onto it.

Wondering whether our paths would ever cross again.

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Bee's P.O.V

I stood infront of the mirror, wearing the dress i planned on wearing to the dance. Making sure everything sat right and I looked perfect. Im glad Tasia made me buy this dress. It complimented my figure rather well. It was black with spaghetti straps and carried diamonds across the chest with a baby blue bow that sat around my waist. I even fiddled with makeup aswell, just to see what would look good. I never normally dress up out of the random but i was beginning to feel excited about the dance. And despite the drama that surrounded Tom and I? I was happy to be going with Bill. And I had to learn to quite worrying about that drama. Bill was my boyfriend. Not Tom.

I spun around letting the dress fly out. I couldn't wipe the smile that was plastered on my face. Suddenly there was a loud, violent knock on the door.

"Okay!" I said rushing to the door. I flung it open. It was Bill. My smile faded the moment I saw him. His face was full of rage.

"When were you going to tell me?" He barged in, waiting for my answer, "Huh!?"

"About what?!"

"You didn't think id find out? You think im just a push over or something?!"

I suddenly got why he was upset, "Bill im sorry!" My voice was shaky.

"No your not! I can't believe you would do that! And with my brother! of all people!"

Tears began to build up in my eyes. The anger in his eyes was scary. I felt fearful.

"W-we...we were broken up!"

"Yeah for like what? A week! I was right all along! You are just as pathetic as he is!" He headed for the door.

"Bill!" I cried.

"No, forget it..we're done!"

"Please! Don't!" I sobbed.

He pulled out something from his pocket. It was the ticket for the dance. He ripped it right infront of me, letting the pieces fall onto the floor.

"Go to the dance with that..you skank!"

He slammed the door in my face. The tears began to pour. I fell to the floor in a heap, crying into my hands. How could Tom do this to me? And how could Bill be so cruel? I laid amongst the ripped up ticket staring up at the ceiling, allowing my body to sink into the floor then I sat up wiping away my tears. I knew what I had to do.

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The walk to the Kaulitz mansion wasn't long at all. I was almost running there. These boys had better be ready. They were in for it! Tom's car wasn't in the drive way. It didn't worry me though..one of them was bound to be home. I knocked on the door impatiently. Their mother answered the door,

"Hallo"

Her smile faded a little, "Whats the matter sweetie?" Her words coated with a heavy accent. She was speaking english? God, why didn't anyone tell me before?! That didn't matter at the moment. Thats not why I was here. I had bigger fish to fry.

I sniffed, "Is Tom or Bill here?" I wiped away a tear that rolled down my cheek.

"No, I sent them down to the shop to get a few things I needed for dinner. They weren't in a good mood when they left though...but did you want to wait here anyway? Maybe if they see you they'll cheer up abit?"

I scoffed. "I highly doubt that"

"Why?"

I thought about it and began to cry again.

"Here come in," She took my hand pulling me inside and we sat down on the couch. "Tell me whats wrong?"

I wasn't about to pour my heart out to the boys mother. If she knew what the situation was? She would take her sons side within a heart beat.

"Is it Bill?" She asked softly. I nodded yes.

"What did he do?"

I allowed myself a moment to calm down before I spoke. But I couldn't.

"Did you guys have a fight?"

I nodded with a sniff. She smiled sympathetically, "Don't worry, Bill is known to be quite harsh when in fight. He doesnt mean alot of the things he says."

I looked up at her, my eyes were blinded by tears, "But I deserved it!"

Simone sighed, brushing the hair off my face, "Im sure you didn't -"

We both perked up when we heard the door open. I felt my heart race. My blood boild. Anger took over me. I got up and ran over to the twins, I shoved Tom with all I had.

"You fucking son of a bitch!" I screamed, beating into him, "How could you be so cruel!?" I yelled. Bill dropped the bags down and tried pulling me away from Tom.

"What are you on about?!" Tom yelled back. I pulled at his shirt nearly ripping it. I noticed Simone out of the corner of my eye, she looked mortified.

"You couldn't leave well enough alone could you?! You ruin everything!"

Bill finally pulled me off Tom and I collapsed on the floor in Bill's arms. He crouched down beside me. The harder I cried, the more tightly Bill held on to me. I was so overwhelmed with emotions.

"Shhh." He whispered.

I looked up at Tom. I glared at him. He wore a rather distraught look on his face. He picked up the items from the floor, handing some to his mother and they both left the room, talking rapidly in German. Bill and I rocked back and forth for a few moments. Saying nothing. He stroked my hair trying to calm me down. I must say...It felt good to just lose control. I knew that my actions wouldn't of solved a thing. Infact? I just made it a whole lot worse.

I turned to Bill, "Im so sorry" I sobbed. He shushed me again and pulled me closer.

"Don't worry...lets just not talk about it."

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xoxo.

Bill and I pulled into our drive way. I desperately tried to stop thinking about my temper tantrum earlier before. I came to the descision that I would tell Bill about Bee. We walked in the house, the smell of chicken schnitzel perforated my nostrils.

"Hallo? Bill? Tom?"

"Hi Mumma!" We replied.

"Hey Bill?"

"Yeah?" Bill sighed flopping onto the couch. I sat with him.

"I have to tell you something.." I began nervously.

Bill wore a worried look, "What?"

"Umm..Okay. Promise you won't get mad?"

"My god Tom, you didn't use my eyeliner again did you?" He joked.

Ha! you wish.

"NO!" I cringed, "That was only one time when I was drunk!...besides this is serious."

Bill calmed himself down as I gathered my thoughts.

"Bill..." I began, "You know how you and Bee split up? Like a while ago?"

"Mhmm?"

"And you know how I went to see her right?"

"Huh? Noo?" His eyebrow rose.

"Oh...well I did and ...well.."

I didn't know how to finish this. There was no real easy way to say 'i had sex with your ex'

Bill's face fell in realisation, "Oh no" he burried his face in his hands. Then scoffed, "So I was right all along?"

"It just happened! -"

"It always 'just-happens' with you!"

Bill rose. I followed. I rested my hand on his shoulder, "Im so sorry..I-"

"Don't touch me!" Bill shoved me back on the couch. Anger and hurt ran across his face, the fire in his eyes burned into me. I couldn't believe I had done this to my little brother.

"Why did you tell me this Tom? Jealous are you?"

"No!"

"Yes you are. You can't stand the fact that i have something good. You just want to keep me down with you! You hate that the attention isn't on you!"

"That is not it at all!" anger began to build up within myself. Bill looked at me coldly waiting for the rest of my answer.

"I told you this because I couldn't lie to you anymore. A-And...Im to inlove with her to just let her go."

Bill's face changed. It was almost...sympathetic? He grabbed the keys off the coffee table and stormed out.

"Hey! Where are you going?!"

Fuck!

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Its short. I know..BUT i plan to post more very soon :D Im sick atm..so i guess i have the time. lol (:

Hope you enjoyed it..and hope it makes sense? Y'all get whats goin' on right?

lol

xoxo

- Update my OWN fanfiction more often.

- Get my hair done.

- buy some clothes for winter.

- make signs for people (:

I'll cross them out when im done..and I'll add more. Lol. They are all my little goals for the moment. Haha!

xoxo.

There. I said it. Have I pissed you off now? Good!

Because you're opinions on people saying that piss me off too. Don't tell me I fucking can't love Bill, Gustav, Tom or Georg. What? Cos' I don't them personally I can't love them? Pfft! You can love someone without having to know them personally you fool! The love that the fans have for TH is a completely different type of love.

GOD!

I hate most TH fans. They're so annoying.