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Haha. Well, ive had this written up for ages. But never thought to post it.

I don't have a title for it just yet. But I guess one will come later.

Tell me what you think? If you like it i'll keep going.

so...here we go! :)

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I walked up the road, kicking the gravel. This was so stupid! I did not want to be here!

I had only been here for 3 days yet it felt like I had been here for so much longer. Of all places my mother had to bring me she had to bring me to Germany. I bet its only because we have family over here. Then we wouldn't have to pay for a real holiday.

We were staying in this tiny apartment with my overly nice auntie and her two brat-faced kids. They were pretty strange to be honest.

One was a hardcore hip-hop and techno fan, while the other was a mainstream, teenie bopping band slut.

Despite that, they were still rather nice. Although they never understood the concept of "Alone time." They would always pester me about something.

As I went to walk through the gates, leading back to the apartments a car screeched to a halt. I spun around; faced with a shiny, black Audi just inches away from me. I grabbed my heart and took a deep breath. Stupid jerk! Clearly I was walking here!

I regained composure and let the idiot have a piece of my mind,

"You fucking idiot!" I started, rushing to the drivers window, "learn to drive, jerk!"

He and...was it a girl or a boy? I couldn't really tell. But they both looked pretty shocked. They probably didn't understand a thing I said anyway.

"Well maybe you should watch where you walk!"

The driver argued back, and in perfect English! I was taken aback.

I scoffed, "Well don't let me stop you now!"

 I was so angry at his arrogance. The nerve of him! He almost kills me and then twists the story around to look like it's my fault? Oh how id love nothing more than to wreak havoc on that beautiful looking car of his. Stupid shiny Audi owner! Who does he think he is?

When I finally reached the entrance to the apartments I looked back at the Audi that sat in one of the car parks. I rolled my eyes and headed on back to our apartment. After fiddling with the keys I entered,

"Anna!" The kids beamed. I faked a smile in return and walked into the house.

The smell of German cuisine hit me as soon as I walked in.

I melted to the couch. I was still a little shaken. I listened to the conversation between my mother and my auntie in the next room. I could only pick up a few words here and there. Languages weren't my thing.

My cousins, Erica and Daniel came and sat with me. I rolled my eyes. You would honestly think I was some sort of alien. They seemed so fascinated by everything I did. I don't know if they were just trying to be nice or they were genuinely this creepy.

"Anna, can I show you something?" Erica pulled me up from the couch, not giving me a choice.

I sighed and followed her to her room.

"Anna?!" My mom called.

Yes! I'm saved!

I let go of Erica's hand and ran out to find my mom.

"But Anna!" Erica wined.

I ignored her and went to the living room in search of my mom.

"Hi baby!"

"Hey" I replied, giving my mom a hug.

"I just have to race out to the shop for Katrina, wanna come?"

"Alright" I smiled.

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"So, anything interesting happen out on your walk?"

Mom broke the silence, jokingly.

"Yeah. I almost got killed by Eminem in a shiny black Audi"

"What? Eminem?"

I laughed, "No it was just some random guy, that almost RAN me down, that's the whole point here!"

My Mom snickered, "Sorry, are you alright?"

"I'm alive aren't I?"

We pulled into some gas station. I couldn't say the name of it.

"Anna, could you run in and get what's on the list?" She asked handing me a piece of paper. I huffed and got out of the car.

I noticed a black Audi at one of the gas pumps. Please don't tell me it's the same one that almost killed me this afternoon?

I strolled around the shop, grabbing the items the list asked for. Double-checking I was right.

My eyes caught sight of a packet of M&Ms. It was the last packet on the shelf. I was clearly meant to have it.

As I went to grab it, another hand went to do the same.

I looked up, to my horror it was the same guy I ran into this afternoon. He wore pants that were at least three sizes to big for him and a massive hoodie with graffiti styled writing and a white bandana. He looked ridiculous. Did he really think he looked good?

I laughed, "Are you serious?"

"Snooze you lose babe" The dread head swiftly stole the M&Ms from me.

"Yeah Babe!" I said emphasising 'babe' taking back the candy.

He glared at me like he was going to eat me if I didn't hand the packet back. I must say, he was intimidating giving his height. I was only 5'1 and he was at least 6'?

With a huff I chucked the M&Ms back to him, "Let the baby have its bottle."

I grabbed my purchases and walked out, storming back to the car.

"What's the matter?" Mom asked

"Nothing" I sighed hoping she didn't detect the anger in my voice. Without asking again she drove off out of the gas station.

I looked back at the obnoxious thug as he feasted on what should have been MY M&Ms. How unlucky could I be today?

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sorry if its shit or it doesn't make sense.

I didn't bother proof reading it. Hahaha.

Anyway, hope you liked it :)

You heard it.

Okay so I know I haven't updated in ..two months? Or more? But it is now official.

"We're not falling inlove we're just falling apart" fanfic is on hiatus!

I apologise. But Im in a major writers block at the moment. As you can tell. I don't like anything I write. So for now? Im going to be posting a new fanfic :) Yepyep. Brand, spanking new! >;D Just a writers block series thing. Won't be to long I don't think. But yes, I shall post it sometime within this week :D

What do you guys think? (:

xoxo.

Okay so im thinking of starting a new, fresh one :) Im not sure on whether I want to or I should continue the other one.

What do you think? If you want me to write the other one I will. However Iam more than happy to start a new one. Haha! Ive already have some of it written. But yeah, whatever you like :)

Opinions please!

xoxo.

Bill offered to drive me home. I told him not to bother but he and his mother insisted. "Its dark out, im not letting you walk home alone!"

I saw nothing of Tom  the rest of the time i was there. I was beginning to feel guilty. The look on his face was one i wouldn't be able to forget any time soon.

The silence that filled the cadillac was deafening.

"Bill?" I began, breaking the silence, "Iam so, so sorry."

I waited for him to say something...anything!

He exchanged a glance between me and the road ahead, "I..Im sorry too." He breathed out.

"What do you need to be sorry for? This was my fault!"

He exchanged another glance, "Well...none of this would of happened had i not come around to your place...i could of handled my anger better-"

"But you had every right to be angry with me!" I cut him off.

He looked at me again. He didn't say anything.

We pulled into my drive way, "Thanks for bringing me home."

Bill smiled. Hardly genuine. But it still comforted me just that little bit.

"Its alright."

"And Bill?"

"Mm?"

"I truly am sorry...for everything."

He huffed, cupping my face gentley with his cold, soft hands, "Bee, stop. You nor I can change what happened,"

"But-"

He placed a finger over my mouth, i took the hint.

"Things are the way they are for a reason."

Ouch? I nodded, pulling away & stepped out of the car. I watched the beast speed off into the dark streets.

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First class. Maths. Excellent. I prayed to god that Tom wouldn't be there. I hesitated before opening the door. Trying to gather up something to say if he was there. Taking a deep breath i opened the door.

"Bryony! How nice of you to join us." My teacher greeted me sarcastically. The class had already well and truly started. How long had I been standing outside?! I ignored him and looked at my table to see if he was here. Sure enough, there he was. I cringed, heading over to my seat. I sat taking out what i needed then threw my bag under the desk.  I glanced at Tom from the corner of my eye. He wasn't doing maths. He seemed to be writing music? Nothing out of the ordinary though. He never payed attention. He noticed me staring at him, "What?"

"Huh? oh nothing."

I took a deap breath, "Listen, im really sorry about yesterday."

He rolled his eyes, "Don't worry about it."

"I can't not worry about it. I shouldn't of been so-"

"Bryony! Listen!"

"Sorry sir"

I was beginning to feel annoyed. I was sick of saying "Sorry." The expression was slowly losing its meaning.

"But you know...you shouldn't of told Bill"

Tom looked back up at me, his eyes widened, "Excuse me?"

"Well you didn't have to go blab to him!"

"He is my brother! He has all the right in the world to know!"

"Tom" The teacher warned, "quiet please?"

"There is a difference between telling someone cos' you care and telling someone out of jealousy." I kept my voice at a whisper, trying to avoid being told off...again.

Tom scoffed, "Jealousy? Do you honestly think that this is what its about?"

"Well why else would you go and tell Bill?!"

"Okay, one! I couldn't lie to him any longer, its just not fair. I owe him better than that. And two!-"

"Thats it! Bryony, Tom, get out!"

"What?!" we said in unison.

"Get out, both of you! When you can learn to control yourselves you can come back in."

We both rose from our seats. The whole class was staring as we left the room. The teacher slammed the door behind us, startling me a little. I leaned up against the wall. As did Tom.

"Well?"

"Well what?"

"Are you going to tell me the second reason?"

Tom huffed.

"Well?"

Rolling his eyes, he pushed himself off the wall opposite me and slowly came closer to me. He sighed, "Second reason is..."

The bell rang cutting him off. He raced back into the room, getting his bag, leaving before i had the chance to stop him.

I followed Tom to music, without him realising. I stopped when i saw him being greeted in quite the friendly way by Catherine. I grimaced as i watched them continue to swap spit with one another. My heart sank. Georg punched Tom as he ran past the couple when Tasia and Gustav turned up hand in hand laughing and smiling. As Tom went to chase Georg, Catherine pulled him back kissing him passionately once again before they departed. I watched Tom, Georg, Gustav and Tasia walk happily to music, while i still stood against the lockers. I argued on the decsion to just fake sick and go home or just tough it out.

"You okay?"

I looked up, Bill stood with a concerned look. I snickered, "You are probably the last person id expect to ask me that"

He gestured for us to continue walking, "How come?"

"Do I need to remind you of yesterday? Or anything else?"

"Well despite everything, i still care for you"

I smiled, I was glad to hear that he cared. I was beginning to feel no one did lately.

"Really?"

"Yes, so tell me...are you okay?"

I hesitated before answering. I sighed, "Well i'd be lying if i said i was"

We reached the music rooms to find our class all standing around outside. Our teacher was busy with the nineth and tenth grade classes who were setting up for a music showcase later on tonight.

"Bee!"

Tasia called excitedly. I waved from where Bill and I were standing. She skipped over and threw her arms around me almost baralling me over.

"Hey"

She finally let go, wearing a massive smile "you excited for the dance? Not long now!"

I faked a smile and nodded. I wasn't in the least bit excited about the dance. Infact? I wasn't sure i'd even go.

I hadn't told Tasia about what happened. I wasn't planning to either. It wasn't my finest, nor my proudest moment.

I looked past Tasia and Gustav, noticing Tom and Georg as they strolled out of the music room, Tom carrying one of the guitars they sat facing eachother, chatting away.

Tom's P.O.V

"So...you and Catherine eh?" Georg winked. I gave him a nod.

"When did this happen?!"

"We've always been on and off, you know that."

"Yeah but still..."

we went silent. I continued to play random melodies on my guitar looking over to Gustav and Tasia when I saw Bee staring right back at me. She looked away the moment our eyes met. I could tell she was trying not to stare. I smirked then turned back to Georg who was busy texting.

I was fooling myself in thinking i could ignore Bee or the situation we were in. Being with Catherine still wouldn't change how i truly felt. It would only distract me. We aren't even together really. I put my guitar down, "i'll be back." And got up heading over to Bee. She turned away the moment she saw me coming. I rolled my eyes. I tapped her shoulder, "Hi"

She slowly turned back, "hey?"

"Can we talk?"

She scoffed, "We tried this earlier didn't we? Well...i tried." As she went to walk away i pulled her back.

"Don't touch me!" She spun around, breaking from my grip.

"Please?"

She glared at me, "Okay...fine."

We reached the wall behind the music block. I made sure no one would see us sneaking off. Especially Bill. He'd get to suspicious.

"Bee? I think we need to talk-"

"Isn't that why im here?"

"Let me finish? I think we should talk about everything. We need to clear the air."

"Okay," She sat down on the cold, concrete floor leaning against the wall. I sat facing her, "Okay first off, im sorry-"

"Don't worry, besides its not just you its me too. We shouldn't of ever hooked up in the first place."

I wasn't expecting her to say that. It hurt a little, "wait what?"

"Well, had we not hooked up we wouldn't be were we are right now."

"You mean all of that, didn't mean anything to you?"

"It did at the time. But thats the past, and this is now. We need to just move on and except that things won't be the way they were. To much has happened between us."

Her words really stung. I didn't want to believe what she was saying.

"Besides, its pretty obvious that you've moved on anyway, you're with Catherine now so why worry-"

"Im not with Catherine!" I shot back defensively.

"Oh really? Because you guys sucking face in the hall earlier tells a different story!"

As she got up i rose with her, pulling her hand back before she could walk away, "No, Im not!"

Without thinking I pulled her into a kiss. I wrapped my arms around her waist pulling her close, as she slid her arms around my neck. I was suprised she didn't try to fight me off. After a few moments she pulled away. I couldn't read the look on her face. Without saying anything she walked off. I stood there wondering whether that really proved anything?

Bee's p.o.v

I walked back to the crowd of people, my head was spinning. Did that just happen? Its not like that kiss really proves that he isn't with Catherine. It was probably his way of shutting me up. And he definitely succeeded. I couldn't help but smile as i replayed the kiss over and over in my mind. I sat along the brick wall and watched Tom imerge from behind the music block, smiling. I snickered to myself. I don't understand! How could he have such will power?

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wow! this took forever but we finally got here! :D

This is crappy i know, im sorry >.< LOL. Hope y'all enjoyed it :) Chapter 32 will be up shortly ;)

thankyou for being patient with me :P baha! idk if this makes sense? does it? do you get whats going on?

if you have any problems with it tell me :) btw, im thinking of ways to end this fanfiction. Im only going to have 40 chapters. Maybe abit more. So i want to hear what YOU would like to happen ;) Also if you have any ideas on where you'd like the story to go feel free to comment me :)

ciao for now!

xoxo.

note! italics = flashback (:

bold = dialogue (obv)

Yes. I know its short. But i wrote this while i couldn't think of anything to write for my fanfic (:

also i havent gone over it, and if its shit? i apologise >.< like i said...it was just something i wrote out of the random.

but yeah i'll update the fanfic soonly...in the mean time? READ THIS! ;D

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I lay awake amongst the hotel room bed sheets. A tear fell down my cheek. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes, wishing I wasn't here. I felt so unclean. This wasn't how it was supposed to happen.

I always told myself I would never be one of these girls. I had too much respect for myself to just give it all to someone I would never see again. I never wanted the reputation of being "A groupie." I grimaced. My stomach turned just thinking about it.

How could I have been so stupid?

The bed moved slightly. I felt an arm take my waist, pulling me close. His warm breathe on the back of my neck. Such a bittersweet sin.

I imagined all those girls who would give anything for a moment like this. A night ago? I was one of them. This was something I had only ever imagined and never thought would be reality...

"Hey I know you!" I slurred above the loud music that filled the club of the after-party.

"Oh do you?"

"Yep! You are Tom Kaulitz!"

He laughed, "What's your name, baby?"

"Lia!"

"Pretty name for a pretty girl," He smirked.

I finished my drink, " Yeah, remember it, you could be screaming it later." I bit my lip seductively.

A smile spread across his face. Without hesitation, he took my hand and we escaped to his hotel room.

I hugged my pillow tight. I looked over at the bedside table for the time. 7am. I sighed, unsure of what I should do.

I felt Tom kiss the back of my neck and inched away from me. I took a deep breath and sat up from the pillow, watching him slip back into his clothes.

"Morning," I greeted him softly.

"Hey," He yawned.

"Leaving so soon?" I asked, knowing the answer anyway.

"Uh, yeah. I have to be down in the lobby. We should be leaving by now. They guys will get suspicious if I'm not there on time." He informed me. I nodded okay, hugging the sheets close to my body. He grabbed the few bags he had from the floor and came over to me, kissing me one last time. I desperately tried to fight the tears from falling. We pulled away slowly. He cupped my cheek in his strong, soft hands and smiled.

I sighed, letting him go, he left me alone in the hotel room. I sat for a few moments going over everything in my mind, again and again.

I got up from the bed, keeping the sheets wrapped around my body and walked over to the window. I watched as the boys tried to get to their tour bus. Fans who had waited since the early hours of the morning, lined up from everywhere just to get a glimpse of them.

Tom was the last to reach the bus. Before stepping into the bus he looked up in my direction, smiling to himself. The bus finally drove off. I sighed walking back over to the bed, collapsing onto it.

Wondering whether our paths would ever cross again.

Hey lovelies.

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I love you all! Thanks for being patient with me, hahaa <3

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Bee's P.O.V

I stood infront of the mirror, wearing the dress i planned on wearing to the dance. Making sure everything sat right and I looked perfect. Im glad Tasia made me buy this dress. It complimented my figure rather well. It was black with spaghetti straps and carried diamonds across the chest with a baby blue bow that sat around my waist. I even fiddled with makeup aswell, just to see what would look good. I never normally dress up out of the random but i was beginning to feel excited about the dance. And despite the drama that surrounded Tom and I? I was happy to be going with Bill. And I had to learn to quite worrying about that drama. Bill was my boyfriend. Not Tom.

I spun around letting the dress fly out. I couldn't wipe the smile that was plastered on my face. Suddenly there was a loud, violent knock on the door.

"Okay!" I said rushing to the door. I flung it open. It was Bill. My smile faded the moment I saw him. His face was full of rage.

"When were you going to tell me?" He barged in, waiting for my answer, "Huh!?"

"About what?!"

"You didn't think id find out? You think im just a push over or something?!"

I suddenly got why he was upset, "Bill im sorry!" My voice was shaky.

"No your not! I can't believe you would do that! And with my brother! of all people!"

Tears began to build up in my eyes. The anger in his eyes was scary. I felt fearful.

"W-we...we were broken up!"

"Yeah for like what? A week! I was right all along! You are just as pathetic as he is!" He headed for the door.

"Bill!" I cried.

"No, forget it..we're done!"

"Please! Don't!" I sobbed.

He pulled out something from his pocket. It was the ticket for the dance. He ripped it right infront of me, letting the pieces fall onto the floor.

"Go to the dance with that..you skank!"

He slammed the door in my face. The tears began to pour. I fell to the floor in a heap, crying into my hands. How could Tom do this to me? And how could Bill be so cruel? I laid amongst the ripped up ticket staring up at the ceiling, allowing my body to sink into the floor then I sat up wiping away my tears. I knew what I had to do.

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The walk to the Kaulitz mansion wasn't long at all. I was almost running there. These boys had better be ready. They were in for it! Tom's car wasn't in the drive way. It didn't worry me though..one of them was bound to be home. I knocked on the door impatiently. Their mother answered the door,

"Hallo"

Her smile faded a little, "Whats the matter sweetie?" Her words coated with a heavy accent. She was speaking english? God, why didn't anyone tell me before?! That didn't matter at the moment. Thats not why I was here. I had bigger fish to fry.

I sniffed, "Is Tom or Bill here?" I wiped away a tear that rolled down my cheek.

"No, I sent them down to the shop to get a few things I needed for dinner. They weren't in a good mood when they left though...but did you want to wait here anyway? Maybe if they see you they'll cheer up abit?"

I scoffed. "I highly doubt that"

"Why?"

I thought about it and began to cry again.

"Here come in," She took my hand pulling me inside and we sat down on the couch. "Tell me whats wrong?"

I wasn't about to pour my heart out to the boys mother. If she knew what the situation was? She would take her sons side within a heart beat.

"Is it Bill?" She asked softly. I nodded yes.

"What did he do?"

I allowed myself a moment to calm down before I spoke. But I couldn't.

"Did you guys have a fight?"

I nodded with a sniff. She smiled sympathetically, "Don't worry, Bill is known to be quite harsh when in fight. He doesnt mean alot of the things he says."

I looked up at her, my eyes were blinded by tears, "But I deserved it!"

Simone sighed, brushing the hair off my face, "Im sure you didn't -"

We both perked up when we heard the door open. I felt my heart race. My blood boild. Anger took over me. I got up and ran over to the twins, I shoved Tom with all I had.

"You fucking son of a bitch!" I screamed, beating into him, "How could you be so cruel!?" I yelled. Bill dropped the bags down and tried pulling me away from Tom.

"What are you on about?!" Tom yelled back. I pulled at his shirt nearly ripping it. I noticed Simone out of the corner of my eye, she looked mortified.

"You couldn't leave well enough alone could you?! You ruin everything!"

Bill finally pulled me off Tom and I collapsed on the floor in Bill's arms. He crouched down beside me. The harder I cried, the more tightly Bill held on to me. I was so overwhelmed with emotions.

"Shhh." He whispered.

I looked up at Tom. I glared at him. He wore a rather distraught look on his face. He picked up the items from the floor, handing some to his mother and they both left the room, talking rapidly in German. Bill and I rocked back and forth for a few moments. Saying nothing. He stroked my hair trying to calm me down. I must say...It felt good to just lose control. I knew that my actions wouldn't of solved a thing. Infact? I just made it a whole lot worse.

I turned to Bill, "Im so sorry" I sobbed. He shushed me again and pulled me closer.

"Don't worry...lets just not talk about it."

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Oh and i have a new banner! Note that "Bee" uses my image and thats all. I don't relate myself to her in anyway..she is purely from my imagination..only she uses my face :D BAHAHA!

xoxo.

Tom's P.o.v:

Bill and I pulled into our drive way. I desperately tried to stop thinking about my temper tantrum earlier before. I came to the descision that I would tell Bill about Bee. We walked in the house, the smell of chicken schnitzel perforated my nostrils.

"Hallo? Bill? Tom?"

"Hi Mumma!" We replied.

"Hey Bill?"

"Yeah?" Bill sighed flopping onto the couch. I sat with him.

"I have to tell you something.." I began nervously.

Bill wore a worried look, "What?"

"Umm..Okay. Promise you won't get mad?"

"My god Tom, you didn't use my eyeliner again did you?" He joked.

Ha! you wish.

"NO!" I cringed, "That was only one time when I was drunk!...besides this is serious."

Bill calmed himself down as I gathered my thoughts.

"Bill..." I began, "You know how you and Bee split up? Like a while ago?"

"Mhmm?"

"And you know how I went to see her right?"

"Huh? Noo?" His eyebrow rose.

"Oh...well I did and ...well.."

I didn't know how to finish this. There was no real easy way to say 'i had sex with your ex'

Bill's face fell in realisation, "Oh no" he burried his face in his hands. Then scoffed, "So I was right all along?"

"It just happened! -"

"It always 'just-happens' with you!"

Bill rose. I followed. I rested my hand on his shoulder, "Im so sorry..I-"

"Don't touch me!" Bill shoved me back on the couch. Anger and hurt ran across his face, the fire in his eyes burned into me. I couldn't believe I had done this to my little brother.

"Why did you tell me this Tom? Jealous are you?"

"No!"

"Yes you are. You can't stand the fact that i have something good. You just want to keep me down with you! You hate that the attention isn't on you!"

"That is not it at all!" anger began to build up within myself. Bill looked at me coldly waiting for the rest of my answer.

"I told you this because I couldn't lie to you anymore. A-And...Im to inlove with her to just let her go."

Bill's face changed. It was almost...sympathetic? He grabbed the keys off the coffee table and stormed out.

"Hey! Where are you going?!"

Fuck!

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Its short. I know..BUT i plan to post more very soon :D Im sick atm..so i guess i have the time. lol (:

Hope you enjoyed it..and hope it makes sense? Y'all get whats goin' on right?

lol

xoxo

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I'll cross them out when im done..and I'll add more. Lol. They are all my little goals for the moment. Haha!

xoxo.

HA!

There. I said it. Have I pissed you off now? Good!

Because you're opinions on people saying that piss me off too. Don't tell me I fucking can't love Bill, Gustav, Tom or Georg. What? Cos' I don't them personally I can't love them? Pfft! You can love someone without having to know them personally you fool! The love that the fans have for TH is a completely different type of love.

GOD!

I hate most TH fans. They're so annoying.

Iam so sorry for not posting any of this in what seems to be a million years. Ive just been so busy with exams and all. Its all been pretty stressful :( But dw, I promise i'll post more now that they are over! :D (Well i have my music one tomorrow..but that doesnt matter cos' its only performing and its fun.lol) So yeah, soz about the delay..enjoy! (:

Tom's p.o.v:

I woke up holding Catherine in my arms. The sun beamed through, making my bleary eyes shed a tear. I rubbed my eyes and glanced down at Catherine and smiled. I pulled her a little closer to me then closed my eyes again, hoping to fall asleep. They soon shot open again when i realised what had actually happened. I scanned the room quickly for anything that had the time on it. I looked over to the bedside table at the alarm clock.

1:30pm.

I let my head fall back on the pillow. I inched away from Catherine and rolled out of bed throwing my clothes back on. I was glad to see i hadn't woken Catherine. She seemed so peaceful. I ran down stairs and sat infront of the t.v staring at it blankly. I argued with myself about what just happened.

'what were you thinking? You know this will all end badly, this will get around to everyone and if Bee knew..'

"-NO! Why should i feel bad? Bee made her choice, Shes with Bill now."

I huffed sinking into the couch. I was beginning to feel confused with myself. Because i knew that deep down? I was still inlove with Bee.

"Hey."

I looked up and saw Catherine standing in the arch way of the living room in a baby purple dressing gown. She came and sat next to me. I didn't know what to say, or whether i should say anything. She rested her head on my shoulder. I smiled and wrapped my arm around her pulling her close to me.

I felt my phone buzz. Way to ruin the moment....Bill!

The message read;

'Where are you? We have practice! :| - Bill'

I don't know why he bothers putting 'Bill' on the end. Its not like i don't know who it is.

I rolled my eyes at the message and got up from the couch

"Where are you going?" Catherine jumped up with me.

"I have band prac, Im sorry" I smiled hoping i inspired some sympathy.

"Its okay" Catherine said quietly. I walked up to her and kissed her cheek.

"I'll talk to you later okay?"

Catherine nodded okay and with that i left her place and sped off back to school.

 Bee's P.OV.

Tasia and I sat on the desks, watching Bill pace back and forth while Georg and Gustav step up for their practice. Bill finally sat on one of the chairs, with a sour look on his face. In attempt to cheer him up I jumped off from the desk and skipped over to him, sitting on his slap.

"You okay?" I asked, wrapping my arms around him. He sighed heavily, and shook his head. It was obvious that he wasn't okay but i thought i'd ask anyway. I took Bill's face gentley into my hands, "Relax" I told him, kissing him softly. I felt him smile through the kiss.

"Im here"

We stopped and looked up to see who it was. Tom lingered through the door way.

"About time you showed up!" Bill snapped. Feeling a little scared, I got up from Bill and darted toward my desk I had been sitting at before.

I stumbled, nearly falling face first when a pair of strong hands caught my fall.

I looked up and saw Tom's cold eyes staring into me, "Th-Thanks." I stuttered, feeling slightly nervous. He let go of me, saying nothing and picked up his guitar.

I finally climbed up on the desk and sat with my eyes fixated on Tom.

"What was that about?" Tasia nudged me.

"Huh? Oh, I don't know." I mumbled. I looked over at the boys who were huddled up together whispering about something. I assumed it would of been about Tom being late. I didn't see why it was a big deal with it. But I guess the boys were just punctual.

"You found a date for the dance?" I asked, trying to keep my thoughts distracted on something other than Tom.

"Yes!" Tasia answered excitedly.

"Ooh, whos the lucky guy?" I winked. She gestured to Gustav.

"What? No way!" I genuinely was suprised. I mean, giving everything that happened with Tom. I didn't think she'd want to date someone who was bestfriends with him. I finally got around to telling Tasia what went on between Tom and I. It was driving me crazy keeping it to myself. She said she had a feeling something was going on between us anyway and to my suprise? She wasn't mad. Well, she was a little but just at the fact I hadn't told her sooner.

'I wouldn't let some boy crush our friendship, besides. I know you're nothing like that Catherine skank!'

Her words reasurred me once again, I snickered to myself.

"Yeah, so you asked Bill yet?"

My smile faded, "No"

Tasia's jaw dropped, "Seriously? But you guys are dating again?!"

"Aah," I paused, "we're kind of 'on and off', i told him i wanted to take things slow"

Tasia shook her head disagreeing with my choice, "Bill!?" She called out

I slapped her arm, hoping she'd take the hint to quite while she was ahead.

"You taking your girl to the dance or what?" She gestured to me.

I cringed. I looked up at Bill. The band had stopped mid song. Bill's eyes lit up at Tasia's suggestion. I felt so uncomfortable. 

"Well that depends" He said softly into the mic.

"On what?" I asked nervously.

"On you" Bill smirked. Wow. How smooth.

He walked over to me and took hold of both my hands, looking down, our eyes locked. He stood waiting for my answer.

"O-okay" I stammered. Bill's smile was ear to ear. His lips collided with mine.

"We gonna practice or what?" Tom asked frustratedly.

 Bill pulled away sighing, giving me a quick smirk then walked back to the rest of the boys. Tasia nudged my arm, wearing an approving smile. I faked one in return. I began to feel uneasy.

By the end of the practice, everyone seemed pretty relaxed. Including Tom. Which i was glad to see. The head teacher of music came in to talk to the boys about playing at one of the local music festivals or something along those lines. I was half listening but im sure id end up finding out the full story sooner or later.

I decided just to leave and go straight to math. I couldn't be bothered waiting around for everyone. I took my usual seat in the back corner and leaned against the wall with a heavy sigh. I looked around at everyone sitting happily gossiping about their weekends and what not. I sunk into the seat a little resting my feet on the chair next to me. I stared into space, my thoughts were everywhere. I was struggling to keep up with myself!

"Excuse me"

I looked up to see Tom towering over me. I moved my feet immediatley so he could sit down. We didn't say anything. I began to drum my fingers against the table, wondering if this lesson would ever start.

"Free period!" One of the jocks across the room declared. Everyone followed the jock out the door leaving only Tom and I. I was suprised at both our decsions to stay.

"Tom.." I began quietly "Are you okay?"

He looked up from the desk and stared at me like i had just asked the most stupidest question ever.

"Are you being serious?" He asked sarcastically.

"Look, Im sorry if ive hurt you-"

"No you're not!" He cut me off. I was taken aback, "What is your problem? I said I was-"

He jumped out of his seat and raced out of the room before i could finish my sentence. I wasn't about to let him get away, I chose to follow him out the door "Tom!" I called, he was leaning against one of the lockers. I rolled my eyes  and walked over to him with caution, "Tom...please don't be like this," I paused looking up into his eyes. "I truly am sorry about all this mess..but you have to know, you and i will always be friends"

"Friends? FRIENDS?! Bee im inlove with you!" He admitted. I noticed his eyes began to tear up a little. He was more emotional than i gave him credit for. I felt my eyes begin to tear up aswell.

"How could you not know that?" He continued, sounding alot calmer, "Ive always been." He stopped and took a deep breath, "you're the only one that gets me."

"Tom.." I hesitated. I was speechless at his confession. I thought it was best not to say anything to it. I pulled him into a hug rocking back and forth for a moment.

Going against my better judgement, "I love you too." I whispered.

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Sooooo..what do y'all think! :D Good update? Shet update? Hmm? :]

p.s i now realise i posted Tom's p.o.v before..and yes i re-wrote it again but shhh! its a re-cap more or less >.< haha!

Heylloooo mein liebes!

Wow. It has been a million years since I had posted a journal like this..or ANY journal for that matter!

So I thought I might aswell update you all :]

Now, I know ive been MIA for a while now (Kinda like Tokio Hotel yes? ;] ) but don't fret. I promise to update as much as I can e.g photos, journals fanfics and all the rest of it.

Anyways on with whats going on in the world of Tahlia!

So Im back at school now. I dearly miss the holidays! Its funny, the first week is always a blast. Then the second is really boring cos' you did most of what you wanted to in the first week! Lol. But the holidays were pretty good. Catherine and I went to the Easter show which was fun but left my feet aching.

Us, flashing off our stunning wigs ;) tehe. They had wigs like this!

 The cut, the colour and all! My mom saw them and was like

"Tahlia why didn't you get a Bill wig!?" Now that I think about it I don't know why I didn't get it :S I think it was with one of the showbags though. Idk. Haha.

 That porno looking pirate lady. Seriously she had her tits out for the world to see! HAHA.

 My friend Marian and I had a Guitar Hero play-off the other day. We spent the whole day trying to unlock Monsoon but failed. Manly because of me. Haha!

LOOK AT ME GOOOOOO! :D

I had my History exam today. It was terrible. Can you say EPIC FAIL!? Mein gott. Ive brought shame to "Troy and the Trojan war" :|

I have my Music and Visual art theory exams tomorrow. Im shitting myself about them two cos' I suck at both those in theory. Practical work is fine though. Then my drama, dance and music practicals are all next week and I haven't even finished my dance or my monologue for drama! eeek! nor have I studied for the theory exams for those subjects either >_< Ugh. Can't wait for all of this to be over and I can relax! *Sigh* :(

Tom Kaulitz made me cry yesterday. Why you may ask? Well here it is:

"Alot of people get to a point in their life were they have nothing left to live for, Its all gone, something happened and then you think about it and realize theres nothing left to live for and we say that it can't be a solution to jump, to let yourself fall.
You should never give up on yourself"..

I felt so inspired after hearing him say that. Hes truly beautiful. Just when I thought I couldn't possibly adore him anymore he goes and says something like that :')

Ugh, I have to have my flu vaccine today. Im worried actually. I almost blacked out last time I had a needle. Well I guess I'd rather that then ending up with this Swine flu D:

By the way guys, I will be updating fanfic this weekend! Its about time I had. Haha lol (:

OH! I remembered what I wanted to talk about now..

THESE STUPID FRENCH TH STALKERS!

What. The. FUCK! :S

Honestly, these girls are doing my head in big time and they aren't even stalking ME! Can only imagine what it must be doing for the boys :( They are fucking women. Not children or teenagers. Grow up! Fucking someone finsh of Perrine, Noemai should be on the next season of the biggest loser, As for Aurore? She looks like a fucking dressed up version of voldermort and Georgina should really get a life seeing as shes 25! wtf! My mum was married and had me at that age! :| Actually now that I look at Georgina she looks like someone I know. I can't quite put my finger on it but she looks like someone i know! aaah! Its annoying me. I can't believe they even had the nerve to stalk the twins's mother! Its completely ridiculous and out of line. And whats the deal with Tom hitting Perrine? Is that even true or not? Cos' everyone's saying he did one minute, then he didn't the next..A straight answer would be lovely thanks! Perrine says shes gone parcially deaf? MY ASS SHES DEAF! Ive been in fist fights before and my hearing is just fine. Shes a right bullshit artist. I hope they all get whats coming to them. I really do.

Hmm well i must be off DINNER TIME! (:

liebe dich

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I woke up holding Catherine in my arms. The sun beamed in hurting my bleary eyes. I glanced down at Catherine and smiled. I pulled her a little closer to me then closed my eyes again, hoping to fall asleep.

They soon shot open again when i realised what had actually happened. I scanned the room quickly for anything that resembled the time.

I looked over to the bedside table at the alarm clock.

1:30pm.

I let my head fall back onto the pillow. I inched away from Catherine and rolled out of bed chucking my clothes back on. I was glad to see i hadn't woken her. She seemed so peaceful.

I ran down stairs and sat infront of the tv staring blankly into it.

I began to argue with myself.

"What were you thinking?! This will end up getting around to everyone! And if Bee knew.."

"No! Why should i feel bad? Or guilty? Bee made it obvious that she made her choice anyway, what would she care?"

I huffed sinking into the couch. Confused with my own thoughts.

"Hey" A soft voice greeted me from the door way. I looked up and saw Catherine wrapped in a pale purple dressing gown. She came over and sat next to me. I didn't know what to say to her. Or whether i should say anything. She rested her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her pulling her close to me. She reached up to kiss my cheek. I smiled.

I felt my phone buzz. It was a message from Bill, It read:

Where are you? We have band prac today remember? Where in the practice rooms at school. HURRY UP!

My eyes widened in realisation. shit!

"Aah, that was Bill, I got band practice" I informed Catherine.

"Oh," She frowned.

"Im sorry, but I'll talk to you later okay?" I rose from the couch. Catherine followed. I kissed her cheek and gave her a hug.

She just smiled and with that i raced out like a maniac back to school.

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Tom's p.o.v

We pulled into a car park, I sat for a moment scanning the front of the school for Bee, making sure i wouldn't run into her.

"Bee!" Bill jumped excitedly out of the car. I watched him run up to her scooping her up into his arms. I could feel my face burning up. I clenched my fist. Why was i being like this!? I couldn't describe the feeling.

"Hey Tom"

I turned my head and saw Catherine leaning against the car door.

"Hey," I said relaxing a little, "Whats up?"

"Nothing," She sighed "Im so tired, really don't want to be here right now.."

"Well that makes two of us"

"We could just skip school you know?" She smiled seductively.

I looked out to Bill and Bee..kissing, holding hands. Then looked back at catherine.

"Alright, get in."

She flashed another gorgeous smile at me and jumped in the car.

"So, where do you want to go?" She asked putting her seat belt on. I stared out at Bill and Bee again. Sitting on the benches out the front. I sighed.

"Tom?"

"Huh? Oh umm, wherever, I dont care."

Catherine snickered. "Well we could go to my place? No ones home so it'll be just us?"

"Sounds good" I smiled.

We sped off out of the parking lot, we drove along in an awkward silence. I wasn't sure what to say to Catherine really. Even though we had grown up with eachother? We still didn't know enough about one another to spark up a decent conversation. One where it didn't result in our clothes skattered across the bedroom floor.

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I melted onto Catherine's lounge sighing heavily.

"Want anything?" Catherine called from the kitchen.

"Nah, im good thanks"

She swiftly made her way to the couch with two cans of coke, placing one on the coffee table infront of me.

"Okay, thanks?" I sat up grabbing the coke can cracking it open.

"Put it on whatever you want" Catherine offered chucking the remote to me. I flicked through the channels. Movies first. Nothing worth watching. I felt Catherine lay her head down across my legs, like they were pillows. She looked up at me and smiled cheekily then turned back to the tv. I smiled to myself. Without realising i ran my fingers through her long, hay coloured hair, sipping on my can of coke.

I could feel myself slowly drifting off when Catherine nudged me, "I didn't say stop!" She laughed.

"Oh, sorry" I continued to play with her hair. She snickered. I heard a car door slam from outside. Catherine shot up, elbowing my leg,

"Ouch!" I groaned.

She ran to the window, "Shit!" She whispered in panic.

"What?"

"My brother! He's home! Come quick!" She grabbed my hand pulling me up from the couch. We ran up the stairs into her room, almost tripping halfway. She pushed me into her room and locked her door.

"What will your brother care if your home?" I questioned.

"If he sees me home he'll end up telling my parents and if he sees you here? Well he will definitley dob me in!"

"Well wont my car out the front ..."

"Ohgod!" She cut me off, i could see the worry in her face hit a whole new level "I never even thought of that!"

before i could say anymore..

"Shh!" she covered my mouth with her hand. I pointed to the window. She looked over and tip toed to the window.

"Phew, hes gone!" She sighed.

She strolled over to me. I stared down into her pale blue eyes, "So now that thats over..what do you wanna do?" She smirked then walked over to her bed. I followed.

"Whatever you want" I stared around her room.

The silence was deafining. I frowned, resting my head in my hands.

"You okay?" She asked.

I glanced up at her, "What? Uhh.. yeah why wouldn't i be?"

Truth be told? I wasn't. But i wasn't about to tell Catherine about anything.

"Your still upset about Bee aren't you?"

My eyes widened. How did she know?

"What? H-how do-"

"I know all!" She joked.

I continued to stare at Catherine. Waiting for an explanation.

"Well you did ring me last night at 2am telling me all about the love triangle that is you, Bee and Bill."

I felt my stomach turn. So much for not telling her anything.

"Oh god.." I muttered to myself.

"You sounded pretty wasted though"

Well that explains it.

"Do you want to talk about it? Now that your sober?" She joked. Her smile was sympathetic.

"Its just.." I started "I dont know am i over reacting?"

"No" Catherine said quickly "Id be pissed off too."

She inched closer to me.

"Don't worry about her Tom..shes just a girl" She assured me.

"I know" I sighed not wanting to believe the last part.

"You shouldn't hide from her"

"Im not!" I lied.

She laughed, pushing me back onto the bed startling me. I held back for a second, then gave into her kisses.

"Should we be doing this?" I asked through the kiss.

"Its not like we haven't before."

She was right. I didn't say anything. We started pulling at eachothers clothes. I let my hands wonder her body. As she did to me. One thing led to another and the rest was history.

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THIS IS SCHIESSE >_>

loool.

hope you enjoy anyways.

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Tom's p.o.v.

"Tom!" I heard Bill call from behind the door.

"What?" I asked groggily.

"Can i come in?"

"Sure"

I burried my head into my pillow. I felt Bill sit on the end of my bed, "You okay?"

"No" My voice was slightly raspy.

"You not feeling well?"

I shook my head. I rolled onto my back and stared at the ceiling. Drowning my sorrows in a bottle of tequila last night wasn't such a great idea. My head felt like it was going to explode.

"You not going to school then?"

"Nup." I managed to say.

"Oh...okay well i'll just get Bee to pick me up then."

My heart swelled in hatred as Bill spoke her name. I felt bitter about this whole situation. It had been almost a week and i hadn't been to school for most of it. The thought of having to run into Bee...

Part of me said to be happy for them, its rare for Bill to find someone he truly likes or "loved" as he likes to say. However the envious part of me was more dominant.

"Whatever" I muttered.

Bill rose from the bed, walking out slamming my door. I pulled the blanket over my face shutting my eyes again. Moments later i heard stomping coming from up the hall. The door barged open. I was scared to pull the blanket off to see who it was.

"Tom!"

My mom shouted pulling the blanket off me. She began waving her hands around, yelling at me in german.

'Get up you lazy child! You haven't been at school all week! Your going to be late!' .... that whole thing.

She rarely goes off at me like this. She must be in the same mood as me.

I yelled back at her, telling her how i was feeling because that seemed like the only way id get through to her.

It failed.

I rolled out of bed with a sigh.

"Mind letting me get dressed then?!" I asked smartly.

I noticed Bill perring in from behind the door, Mom walked out of the room saying nothing, pushing Bill out of the way making him stumble. I couldn't help but laugh.

I grabbed my pants and shirt off the floor throwing them on. I put my cap on and gathered my school stuff and chucked in my bag with a huff.

There was another knock at my door. I felt like i was going to lose it now. Why couldn't everyone just leave me alone?

"What?!" I shouted.

I watched the door for a moment. It krept open with Bill again. I rolled my eyes "What Bill?" I sighed throwing my bag on my back.

"You alright Tom?"

"Yeah," I lied, "Why wouldn't i be?" I stared at him, awaiting another question.

"Are you sure?"

And there it is!

"Yes!" I lied again, in the hope he'd let it go.

"Oh..okay its just you seem pretty frustrated this morning"

I scoffed, "Frustrated? Me? Never! I mean, i woke up feeling shit, Ive had you and mom come in and out of my room every five seconds and i really didn't want to go to school today cos i really didn't want to see-" I stopped to bite my tongue, i was worried i had said to much.

"Who don't you want to see?"  Bill rose his eyebrow in curiosity.

"Nevermind, im ready so lets go!"

Before he could interogate me anymore i shoved him out of my room.

"B-but!"

"Ah! Comeon! Lets go lets go lets go!" I joked, shutting my door.

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Well i had more to add to this, but i dont have time to type it all up (:

Hope you dont mind this. This is a shit update tbh.

ohwells. ill add more tomorrow i swear :)

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I found myself in the "Tokio Hotel mosaic" poster today. I was so happy i cried. I know that might seem like im the worlds biggest pussy but i honestly never win or get picked for anything, so being picked for something Tokio Hotel related really made my day.

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I trudged out of the studio heading straight for the living room. I spent most of the morning in the studio working on songs by myself, trying to keep distracted. But it didn't seem to work. I couldn't stop thinking about Bee. I missed her. She was the only person i could be myself around other than Bill.

I jumped onto the lounge, sinking into it, flicking through the channels. There was nothing on. Well.. nothing worth watching. I skimmed through the music channels ...

"Thats what you get when you let your heart win"

I rolled my eyes. How ironic? Of all songs, this one had to be on. I switched the tv off and sat in silence for a moment. I thought of calling Bee. Although, the last time we spoke wasn't on what you'd call "good terms". Then i thought of telling Bill. I really hated keeping stuff like this from him. It was killing me.

I got up from the lounge, looking for him. I wasn't to sure if he was home or not. I hadn't seen him all morning.

The closer i got to his room, the more nervous i got. I wasn't to how i was going to sugar coat "I slept with your girlfriend." to my little brother. Though it was more than that. I loved her.

I cautiously knocked on the door, taking a deep breath.

"Bill?" I called out.

I heard fidiling with the door knob and the door swung open. My jaw dropped. It was Bee. She stood wearing a black, strapless prom dress. She looked beautiful.

"Oh..hey aah ..your not Bill" I cringed. That was a stupid thing to say.

She snickered and smiled. Which calmed me a little. Bill came up from behind Bee hugging onto her waist, resting his chin on her shoulder, "Whats up Tom?" He asked. I looked back at Bee. Her eyes filled with sympathy. It was clear to me that she had made her decision.

"Uuh, umm," I stuttered, racking my brain for an excuse, "Never mind, it wasn't important." I faked a smile

"Oh..okay then" Bill shut the door in my face. I stood motionless. I kept replaying the moment over in my mind. I wasn't sure what to feel. Should i feel hurt? anger? relief? I walked across the hall into my room slamming the door behind me, just falling into a heap on the floor. I gazed up at my ceiling. I really didn't know what to do now. What to think or what to say. All i knew was that my love? Obviously wasn't good enough for her.

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hope i didn't disappoint anyone! Its pretty crap and could of gone for longer.

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and yes. the song on the tv was a paramore song loool :P

I walked along in a daze, my mind consumed with thoughts of Tom. The look on his face from the other week was imprinted in my mind and kept haunting me. I tried pushing him to the back of my mind but it didn’t seem to work.

“What do you think?” Tasia walked out of the dressing room cubicle with a big smile spread across her face. The dress hugged tightly to her petite body. It was powder blue with diamonds all along the chest.

“Yeah,” I faked a smile, trying to show an interest. I didn’t care really. It was only a lame school dance.

However I decided I would stay positive for Tasia. I didn’t want to bring her down with me.

“You found one you like yet?” She asked inspecting herself in the mirror fixing her dress. Making sure it looked perfect.

“Ah, yeah I don’t think im going...” I said leaning up against the dressing room wall.

Tasia spun her head around glaring at me, “What do you mean ‘Not going’ ”

“Its just a school dance, I wont be missing much.”

She scoffed, “Its not just any school dance. It’s the shake that snowflake dance, the one time of year where winter comes to town” She informed me.

The name didn’t do any justice. Shake that snowflake?

There were posters all around the school about this dance. All the hype began to annoy me.  The idea of a winter dance was ridiculous. It wasn’t even cold and it was winter!

“I don’t know”

Tasia went back into the cubicle, “I do! It’ll be fun!” She insisted.

I smiled to myself.

“But im not even going with anyone!” I complained.

“What about Bill? You guys are cool now right?”

I ended up telling Tasia about Bill and I. But the Tom secret close to the chest.

“Yeah but he hasn’t even mentioned anything about it.” I sighed in disappointment.

 “So ask him!” Tasia came out of the cubicle in the clothes she was wearing when we came in. “He’s sweet, beautiful and crazy about you! What more could you want?”

“I don’t know” I sighed, pushing myself off the wall. We walked to the racks to put the dress’s back. “Well you’d better figure it out. Cause he’s not going to be able to wait forever”

Tasia was right. Bill wouldn’t wait forever. Neither would Tom. I had to figure this out and I needed to figure this out soon.

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Im not bothered to go over it so if it doesnt sound right? Iam sorry :(

So yeah, this is Part one of this chapter. Part two will be posted tomorrow. Its Tom's pov btw ;]

Anyways hope you enjoyed this update even if this was shit. lol.

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